My Side of the Story

   *TRIGGER WARNING: SUICIDAL THOUGHTS IN THE BEGINNING OF THIS POST!!*   I tried so hard to fight those bad thoughts, but it slowly kept winning. I contemplated how I was going to do it and who would find me first, so I Googled the fastest way to die through a stab wound. Multiple websites said that severing the blood flow in your neck will cause you to lose blood and unconsciousness within seconds causing you die in a few minutes. Still thinking about my family, that option was quickly extracted because there was no way I would let them find me with a knife in my neck. I realized that going with something less gory was more appropriate, so I thought about hanging myself. While looking up ways to tie a noose, I began backing out of this plan too because I didn’t want anyone climbing up to untie my body.   Needing some air, I forced myself out of bed and headed towards the kitchen. With no one home, it was comfortable for me to show my face outs...

  Of course I had already let my mom know of the choices Enos had given me. Knowing the dismissal bell was set to ring in the next twenty minutes, I remained in my uncle’s office when my mom let me know she was outside. Dygre smiled and greeted my mom at the front desk pretending like he didn’t just put me through hell for the past four hours. I didn’t care if my eyes were still red and puffy, I was just relieved to see my mother’s face. When I approached her, you could tell she was pissed. My mom said “ Anna, go wait in the car while I talk to this guy. ” One look between the both of us was all it took for me to expect the worst.   I walked out to our car and sat behind the driver’s seat where my dad was. Noticing how low I hung my head and how sad I looked, he asked me what happened. After a long silence, he didn’t rush me to speak. Instead my dad understood and let me cry in peace. Fifteen minutes later, my mom came into the car angry. She said “ Enos is ...