Part 12: The End
N.M. only took me off his IG once I posted the video of N.S. and I getting back together. He posted this long caption about how he was happy for me and was going to cherish the past four years, and everyone pitied him for it saying he's handling the breakup in a mature way. Then he went onto Twitter and began badmouthing me. Seeing what he was doing, I told him whatever anger he has needs to only be towards ME, and he is not to bring N.S. into any of this. If he ever brought up N.S.'s name, I was going to go after him. For almost seven months, my name was constantly coming out of his mouth, but even after this I hoped that he'd get through the pain.
I was happy to know he was finally doing things I was trying to get him to do when we were together. It was sad that he along with many many others decided to burn their bridges with me especially because I had promised myself long ago that if N.S. ever got together again, I'd have his friends waiting there for him with me. Too bad that nearly impossible since everyone I've ever came across had screwed me over years prior.
From the moment Nestor and I got together, there was a drastic change in my life. I was extremely emotional and crying constantly because I could finally breathe. After years and years of nonstop bullying, drama, and being hated for no reason, it felt good hearing that none of that hate was my fault. It felt even better knowing I was finally free, and I didn't have to be so tough on the outside anymore because I had someone else who was willing to protect me. All I ever wanted was to love and be loved in return, and after seven years, I had it with the one person I had waited so long for. Now, I'm in a happier place with the love of my life, and life is fantastic!
To everyone who’s reached out: Since I began writing this blog, there were so many of you whom I had never spoken to in years. None of you guys were in my posts because you were never negative towards me, and I want to thank you for being the bunch that made me enjoy high school.
To the few friends who hasn’t burned any bridges with me: You know exactly the kind of caring and inspiring person I am and have been. You are the ones I want to truly express my thank yous to because while I felt like I was losing everyone, you guys stuck with me no matter what anyone said.
To the people I’ve met through Nestor: Thank you for accepting me as one of your own so quickly. I felt so relieved knowing you didn’t judge me on my past because that’s all anyone ever did for so many years. I promise to treat Nestor with as much love and respect as I can, and I promise to invite you to our wedding! Thank you guys for easily replacing every single deceitful friend I thought I had throughout high school.
God put me through these obstacles for a reason. It was either I learn from it and become better or let it consume me. My goal was to be a better role model for my siblings and to be a better person on the inside and out before I got with Nestor again. Though I had to trudge through all the hardships on my own, I’m glad to finally be able to share my story with all of you. Thanks to each and every one of you for taking the time to read through my long blog posts. It has been a great way to release all of my built up feelings that I’ve held in for so many years. Through my experiences, I’ve learned to keep going especially when life gets tough. You may feel stuck and at rock bottom, and it’s completely okay for you to feel that way, but only for a little while. You have to be able to pick yourself up because no one else is going to do it for you.
I was happy to know he was finally doing things I was trying to get him to do when we were together. It was sad that he along with many many others decided to burn their bridges with me especially because I had promised myself long ago that if N.S. ever got together again, I'd have his friends waiting there for him with me. Too bad that nearly impossible since everyone I've ever came across had screwed me over years prior.
From the moment Nestor and I got together, there was a drastic change in my life. I was extremely emotional and crying constantly because I could finally breathe. After years and years of nonstop bullying, drama, and being hated for no reason, it felt good hearing that none of that hate was my fault. It felt even better knowing I was finally free, and I didn't have to be so tough on the outside anymore because I had someone else who was willing to protect me. All I ever wanted was to love and be loved in return, and after seven years, I had it with the one person I had waited so long for. Now, I'm in a happier place with the love of my life, and life is fantastic!
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To everyone in my posts:
Even though I never got an apology from any of you, I forgive you all. Not for you, but for me. I hope you guys are no longer the same horrible people as before, and I hope you’re finally doing something good in your lives for once. You’ll probably never see how badly your words and actions affect others around you, but it’s not too late to be good people.To everyone who’s reached out: Since I began writing this blog, there were so many of you whom I had never spoken to in years. None of you guys were in my posts because you were never negative towards me, and I want to thank you for being the bunch that made me enjoy high school.
To the few friends who hasn’t burned any bridges with me: You know exactly the kind of caring and inspiring person I am and have been. You are the ones I want to truly express my thank yous to because while I felt like I was losing everyone, you guys stuck with me no matter what anyone said.
To the people I’ve met through Nestor: Thank you for accepting me as one of your own so quickly. I felt so relieved knowing you didn’t judge me on my past because that’s all anyone ever did for so many years. I promise to treat Nestor with as much love and respect as I can, and I promise to invite you to our wedding! Thank you guys for easily replacing every single deceitful friend I thought I had throughout high school.
God put me through these obstacles for a reason. It was either I learn from it and become better or let it consume me. My goal was to be a better role model for my siblings and to be a better person on the inside and out before I got with Nestor again. Though I had to trudge through all the hardships on my own, I’m glad to finally be able to share my story with all of you. Thanks to each and every one of you for taking the time to read through my long blog posts. It has been a great way to release all of my built up feelings that I’ve held in for so many years. Through my experiences, I’ve learned to keep going especially when life gets tough. You may feel stuck and at rock bottom, and it’s completely okay for you to feel that way, but only for a little while. You have to be able to pick yourself up because no one else is going to do it for you.
Sincerely, Rianna 👸
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